Flood? Hmmm! What does that word mean? A great flow of water; abundant supply or outpouring of anything; inundate–to fill with an overflowing abundance.
The School of Hard Knocks. I’m sure that many people can say they have and are still going through the School of Hard Knocks! As I reflect on my life that is true for me. The worst decision, and they were few, was my decision to tell God what I was going to do…I remember the day back in 1972. I was sooo bored!!! With everything! Being the good little girl just wasn’t for me anymore, so I told God I was going to go out and find out what life was all about. That was not so good a decision! But it was my way or the Highway…
From those words came my journey on a downward spiral into a pit that took years to climb out of. All the things I said I would never do, I began to do. Drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, running with a married man, cussing, hanging with the wrong group of people, doing all sorts of things I shouldn’t do.
Did I feel convicted? Yes and no. But I just kept ignoring it to the point where I buried it deep down inside. I would pray for forgiveness and do it over and over again until it became a way of life. I became blind to it all. It got to the point where I found myself deep down in the pit of hell.
As I began my new journey in 1984 to climb out of that pit, it was a struggle and a fight that was unbelieveable. I would climb up and slide back down. Climb up and slide back down. Searching for something–anything to get out. A word, a phrase to hold onto.
It was like a flood and I kept getting caught up in it. Flowing downstream searching for something to hold on to. As I searched God’s Word; little phrases or a words from him would catch my eye and I’d grab it and hold on to it. Fear not– what can man do to you; Be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to wrath; for wrath does not produce the righteousness of God were 2 of the very first phrases I grabbed ahold of. Footprints in the Sand too–My Precious Precious Child at those times when you see only one set of Footprints–It was then that I carried you.
All of a sudden, out of the blue, while sitting in Church during testimonies something stirred inside of me to stand and speak. What I had to speak, I had no clue. I began trembling and shaking wrestling within myself to contain it. All of a sudden a force lifted me up and I began to speak. Trembling and shaking I got through it and quickly sat down when I was done. PHEW!!! That was over with! I had no idea what was said! No idea what had happened! That began to happen every Sunday. I felt sooo embarrassed as I stood there trembling.
It began to become normal to me. Like an abundant supply or outpouring of faith–today I take the action needed to show myself that nothing is impossible with GOD, and I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me. To learn that he gives me the strength to take each and every step I take.
I Praise God and Thank Him sooo very much for sending Jesus to us to seek and save the lost. I have been one of tem who was lost, but Jesus brings me up and out of that pit…That’s why I take a STAND FOR JESUS.