My!My!My! How do I put all this together? “In the Circle” or another way to put it “in the clique” came to my mind while talking to the Pastor. It gave me something to think about.
I really never did fit into the circle. No matter where I went or what I did throughout these years of living. It seemed I was always the outsider looking in. Life has always been a struggle. It’s not easy being the outsider. It took alot to fit myself in with people. It just wouldn’t work. I was crazy, odd, blunt, and when I got to the end of my rope–no one knew what I was going to say or do. I just couldn’t do it!
I was always the outsider in search for something, but what?
It’s hard to get anyone to reach out and help with anything! It became nearly impossible to even reach out myself and ask for help from any one. Can you relate? I am sure there are many out there somewhere who can relate.
I don’t know about all of you, but I got sick and tired of reaching out to ask anyone to do anything for me.
As I sit today isolated from the outside world “again”! I have gotten to the point of not reaching out “again”.
The one thing that “really” cracks me up as I sit here in a wheel chair not able to go anywhere is; people ask, “Is there anything I can do for you? Oh I’m so busy.” I’ve learned to say, “that’s ok.” I cry and weep for those others who have suffered in this way.
This comes down to my point. We who are in this category do have hope!!! My experience has taught me that I don’t need to be in any circle! Why, you ask? One word–JESUS–
He loves us unconditionally. No matter what we have done or are doing at this time in our lives; he is always with us. He reaches out to us. He came to seek and to save the lost. HE will send people to help if we ask him. Sometimes there is no one to help but him. The Harvest is ripe, but the workers are few.
The lesson I learn from those times is–I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. That is the best circle I could ever be in…He accepts me there…He will accept you too.